Creative Confidence

The saying goes: "You can do anything you set your mind to". So as kids we all want to be astronauts, firemen, or doctors (none of these were actually on my list to be honest). Then we get older and discover that these goals are very difficult to obtain, we find other interests, or maybe even just settle for something that will pay the bills. We may never return to those dreams, or think about "what we want to be when we grow up". Some people might even say that you will never amount to anything and even if they try to say it in the nicest way possible, you'll always have that in the back of your mind... You can't do it. Well I'm already beyond the things people thought I would never be able to achieve, and you can do it too. If you want it you can get it, do it, be it. What they don't tell you is that the journey may be long, difficult, and frustrating, and you'll begin to wonder if that dream is worth all the trouble... Why is it so difficult? Does this mean I shouldn't be doing this? Do I have any talent?

“I got accused over the years of being a fine draftsman. Actually, I don’t really draw that well. It’s just that I don’t stop trying as quickly. I keep at it. I happen to have high standards and I try to meet them. I have to struggle like hell to make a drawing look good.”
— Milt Kahl

Many of Disney's famous animators, the Nine Old Men have been quoted saying similar things. Milt Kahl is one of the best of them all, and if he had to struggle, then don't be surprised when it's not so easy for you. So many of the people you admire went through years of failure before they got to where they are, you just don't see it. So all of a sudden they seem to be creating amazing things, and all you know is the final product. The product from years of struggle and failure, that will no doubt continue, no matter how "talented" someone is. In my opinion, talent isn't anything more than willpower. The true talent is the self motivation to go and work as hard as you can for the thing you want. That's why they're so good. 

With that said, I'm surrounded my enormous amounts of talented people at my school. They've done the work and surpassed their awkward, horrible art phases, and are beginning to create wonderful things. It's ridiculously intimidating. Some say that you should surround yourself with people that are better than you, but it's hard not to let it kill your confidence. I don't know where I fit in among these people yet, I just know that I have to be patient and work harder. Comparing myself to people with more experience is useless, I need to focus on getting that experience so I can be as good if not better. So that is exactly what I intend to do and hopefully I will look back at all the trouble, and it will be worth it.

Posted on March 19, 2014 .