If I had to sum up my experience at Art Center thus far, with one word...

per·se·ver·ance (ˌpərsəˈvirəns/) noun: steadfastness in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success.

The struggle is real, let's be honest. It's been very real for me these past few weeks. Each term there's usually a moment of panic, frustration, or exhaustion. However this was an overwhelming lack of motivation, and it's probably the longest I've ever been down. Getting stuck in a rut is bad, but it's worse when you can't find a way to get out. I tried my usual methods of reinvigoration, but nothing seemed to stick. I talked to my teachers, mentors, and other students about it but nothing changed.

I pushed though. I came to school almost every day and tried to do some piece of work. I couldn't wait for the moment that I felt inspired or ready, because I had no idea when that feeling was going to come back. At Art Center you DO NOT want to fall behind in your classes. I already had the flu this term and was in bed for about 8 days, so there wasn't any more room for me to slack off. So I did the work. It may not have been my best, it may have been incredibly difficult, but I persevered.

That's all you can do sometimes. There's no secret, no magic formula, no right time. You can't wait for the motivation, you just need to have the will-power to push forward and have faith that there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Keeping that faith is hard, because you won't always get what you want and it will seem like an endless tunnel. Just know, that we've all been there, and we will all be there again. There will always be mountain tops, valleys, and plateaus but it's all a part of a great journey. I'm going to quote a very famous wizard with a killer beard...

“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”
— Dumbledore

I'm finally coming out the other side of the tunnel. There are 4 weeks left in the term and I know I can't give up now. I just know that all this frustration will eventually lead me to my big dream. No matter how bad I feel, I remind myself everyday that I will make it there soon. My passion for my dreams is so strong that it keeps me going for at least another day, another project, another rut... and we just keep moving forward.

Posted on March 16, 2015 .